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How underwater panic changed my perspective in Malaysia

When your dive master knows you better than your therapist

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Claire Drinkwater
Mar 18, 2025
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For this story, join me in Malaysia. Here, I was about to discover its incredible nature and wildlife - plus the birthday gift I never knew I needed.


Water fills my mask. I can't see. Can't breathe. Panic surges through my body as I fight the instinct to swim up for air.

But it’s too late. Gasping, I break the surface of the South China Sea.

Scuba diving is not for me. My inner critic is on overdrive: I've failed, again. I can't do this. I'll never master this.

How would I ever fulfil my dream of diving the Great Barrier Reef in Australia if I can't even get past one basic safety exercise?

This was not how I imagined my birthday treat in Malaysia would go.

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